I know you're mad at us for leaving you guys and I don't blame you for being mad at us, but I just want to say I'm sorry. When Stefan called me and Armen about going to your place, we found out about Adeline's party at the same moment from Fanny. And Armen was so sure he would be able to bag Fanny tonight. And lately with everything going badly for him, he set a lot of his happiness and expectations toward Fanny, which wasn't necessariellly smart but it's something he does. The whole walk to your house he kept bringing it up and was so pumped about it. We didn't realize that you guys expected us to stay the whole night, which was stupid on our part to assume something like that. So when we got to your place, Armen felt like you guys would understand how much he needed this and would feel for him. But it was dumb of us to not bring it up before or right when we got there. I don't know why we didn't, it was dumb. But armen really needed this and I needed to be a good friend to get him through it, whether it works out or not, i needed to be there if it didn't work out. And we asked if you guys wanted to come but you guys didn't want to. And then you started to push us out, and by the time we were putting on our shoes, none of us wanted to go to the party and just wanted to stay here with you guys because we didn't realize you would be so upset, but it would just make you more mad if we came back and tried to make it better. Lucas could stay cause he didn't know about the party in the first place. So I'm sorry...it was our faults because it wasn't smart to just assume that you would understand Armen's point of view. And I told pamela this, but there is more to it that I can't tell pamela :/ for me, I know why I wasn't thinking well. The whole time I was just thinking about pamela and how I like her and whether it would work out between us. My mind was just so filled with trying to notice anything that would give me some sense to see if me and her would work out. I was thinking of myself the whole time, and honestly I feel like Adeline's party was just an excuse for me to leave by the end of it because I just didn't feel anything between me and pamela relationship wise. The closer I got with her, the more I felt it wouldn't work out, and I guess i didn't want to feel sad about that anymore. And when we left, that's when I realized what was going on and what you guys were mad about, and by that time, it was too late. I was just clouded by my own dilemma and it ended up hurting you guys and I'm sorry. :/
I just want you to know that I have never in my life been more dissapointed than that night. Armen and I were planning this all week and even Stefan knew that we were going to hang out one day this week. I understand Armen's dilemma quite perfectly actually-too bad I had no fucking idea of it the night of. No one told me anything and you guys literally just made me feel as though spending time with me was a "pit-stop" before the actual party. As if you simply just had to cross me off your to-do list. I don't get to hang out with you guys EVER. And I'm always trying. I'm begging armen and stefan to hang out..it's all I ever talk about with them (how we need to hang out). And the one fucking night we decide to hang out there is a party all of a sudden? Like what? Okay cool. Had you guys told me earlier and said, hey isabel is it okay if we come for a little bit and then go to adelines? I would have been okay with that be at least I know what the fuck was going on. When you guys came to my house no one told me anything, there was no mention of a party-which I think I deserved to know. After an HOUR of jus chilling at my place, you guys decide to get ready to go. I mean like that is the shittiest thing ever. You guys are suppose to be my friends-and I no longer see that. I don't have many friends that I really consider good friends and you guys were apart of that. But just like everyone else you all didn't fail to dissapoint. I was heartbroken. I don't consider you guys my friends anymore-friends don't do that to eachother. Friends don't hang out once every 5 months. Friends don't ditch you for someone elses party. Friends tell eachother things. Lucas stayed because he wanted to stay-not because he didn't want to go to the party. He felt bad and so he stayed. You guys had a choice: stay at isabel's and see what's up or go to the party. You made your decision-I just hope you all know that you left a lot more than just my house last night.
