Viola
5/12/2013 11:52 am
Her: In her room
Me: In my room
Just woke up...
but no
it was two pecks
wait, u missed twice?
i thought matt kissed u
first time i missed
did u tell him u missed?
and kissed his lips and backed off
then i kissed his cheek when i said bye
and then he kissed me
but did u tell him u missed?
alec?
no matt
when u kissed him the 2nd time
no
i was drunk as fuck
well u didn’t stop matt right away, so either way alecs gonna think of u as at the bad guy
IT WAS A FUCKING PECK
like the ones on the cheek
except on the lips
when i was drunk
i meant to kiss his cheeks
but boom i missed
when i said bye to him monday
boom I’m about to kiss you on the cheek like i do to so many people
boom kiss on the lips
i fucked shit up
yes
should’ve been more honest with everyone
should’ve talked with matt, told him i needed to work shit out with alec or try no
but fuck
no
i am not a slut
and i talked to alec
what he say?
that I’m not sorry
well let him be mad
u owe him that
no point in arguing back, it’ll just make it worse
it wasn’t even me that kissed matt!
the fuck
i don’t deserve this shit
no
I’m trying to protect matt
but no
i didn’t ask for this shit
i don’t deserve being called all the shit i was called
i am sorry
it just got all crapped up
then there shouldn’t be a break with alec
if it should work out, i just feel like people should ride through the whole time
i know
but i wasn’t ok
i don’t know
do u like matt?
its confusing
is it confusing with alec?
yes
its hard when someone cares about u like that a lot
its hard to know how u feel sometimes
i don’t know
i love alec
and I’ve loved matt, but it was always friend love
and then it just got confusing