Not feeling great...
pamela and i went to the park to talk about us
and we decided to start dating for good
and for the rest of the school day, it felt like i had finally made it
like after all the struggles the past few years, i finally made it
but then after school, she called me when i was at bretts house
and she said she wanted to meet up
so we met up, i kissed her hello
sat on a bench facing the water
and she told me that she just doesn’t see me romantically
and that we shouldn’t do this
and at first all i could think about is how forced that kiss was haha
but now, it just feels so shitty
having felt that much happiness, only for it to go away after a few hours
its become pretty apparent that i don’t deserve love
if anything shows that its after being on and off with pamela about what we are for months
i still end up here, alone
